No More Second Chance, Alpha Varian

Chapter 1

Thalia's pov

"I don't know what to do, Mira..." I said with a defeated sigh, "... Varian has given me an ultimatum, if I accept the scholarship to Crescent University, I won't be able to be his Luna,"

My best friend who was currently hundreds of miles away in her dorm room stared at me through the communication crystal.

"Tell me this is a joke, Thalia, you've wanted to go to Crescent uni ever since you were ten! This is unexaggeratedly your lifelong dream,"

"So is being Luna," I argued with her, "... I loved Varian even before I knew the meaning of the word, he's been there for me ever since I lost my Dad he–"

"He is standing in between you and your dream, and he's waving the relationship between the two of you as leverage. That's the only thing I can hear right now, can't you?!"

"Mira it's not that deep–"

"I could say the same thing about your relationship," she deadpanned, "both of you are not fated mates!"

Her declaration struck an old wound and was hard too.

It was the memory of a 16 year old me about to be 17 in a month rushing into the arms of a fresh 18-year-old Varian for the first time.

He was old enough to feel the mate bond, I had been begging the moon goddess to make us mates.

Unfortunately, I learnt in that moment that life doesn't always go the way you hope.

Varian with his hands around my waist looked at me with a mix of apology and self frustration.

"Varian..." I called out to him hopefully, but he couldn't even bear to meet my eyes. His words filled him but his actions did not.

We were not fate mates.

But in that split second he held me even closer.

"This doesn't change anything between the two of us Thalia, I still love you with all of my heart and a mate bond does nothing to change that,"

Tears instantly welled up in my eyes.

"Varian...what if...what if you meet your fated mate in future? They say the bond is unescapeable. Shouldn't we just end things here now before going too far?"

He held me even more possessively, like I would disintegrate if he released me just a bit.

"I don't care, fate mate or not you are my chosen mate, the only one I see my future with. The only woman I want is my pup. No one can even come close to comparing,"

In order to avoid anyone ever questioning the validity of our feelings for one another we never told another person about the fact that we were not mates.

And just like that we were the perfect pack love story: the Alpha's son and the Beta's daughter who had been childhood friends forever blossomed into full lovers and mates.

But I ended up getting drunk once on a girl's night with Mira and spilled the beans. She later swore