No Escape From Fate

The evening fatigue settles on my shoulders like an unbearable weight. The people in the overcrowded minibus sway quietly, bouncing uncomfortably over the road's potholes, sitting in gloomy silence as they count down the stops until it's their turn to get off.

The evening rush hour traffic jams always wear you down no less than the job you're coming home from. It's the daily routine of countless working pedestrians who don't have their own car.

Some lady in the bus had apparently poured an entire bottle of some horribly cloying, suffocating perfume on herself, with a smell that reminded me of rotten bedbugs. Two seats away, some man started coughing loudly without even thinking of covering his reeking, alcohol-laden mouth. And to top it all off, when it was finally my turn to squeeze my way to the exit, some clumsy cow stepped hard on my foot, scraping the faux leather on my brand-new boot!

Things just keep getting better and better. Outside, a nasty, fine November drizzle was falling-the kind that would once again turn my courtyard into an impassable swamp of mud.

In weather like this, Anton definitely won't show up... and thank God for that! Lately, his presence has been suffocating me.

At first, I liked his erudition and education-after all, these days it's not easy to find a man who's intelligent, cultured, and well-mannered. But after a few years, that very correctness in his behavior, along with his constant nitpicking about my words and "improperly constructed" phrases, started to seriously get on my nerves and press down on me. Honestly, it makes me want to fling open the window just to breathe.

And the sex with him... well... at least it existed. A sort of strict stability on Fridays, sometimes even on Saturdays. And if Mercury happened to be in retrograde-then Sundays too!

Why I agreed to this, and more importantly-why I'm still in this kind of relationship-I honestly can't answer with certainty, even to myself. Probably just a matter of habit by now. Though, truth be told, we've only been officially together for almost two years.

Before we became a couple, we studied finance together and were good friends. In those carefree student years, he was quite an interesting and fun guy. My red-haired, handsome classmate with piercing brown eyes was my best friend at university-and I'd be lying if I said the girls didn't notice him. But he was more interested in his studies than in them. There's just something about him that's incredibly attractive... right up until he opens that overly clever, endlessly boring mouth of his.

After graduation, we both got assigned to the same company, and for several years we worked side by side. Our friendship seemed to grow stronger, and eventually Anton took a bold step-he asked me out.

With my tight work schedule and constant busyness, I had catastrophically little free time. Men don't usually like that-they want attention-and that's why none of them stuck around in my life